Just like a child

For as long as I can remember, I have loved babies. I love being around basically all ages of children, but there's something about the "newness" of a baby that tugs at my heart every time I hold a precious young child. To be able to wonder about what they will do with their lives and how God already has a plan for their lives without thinking about all the mistakes that they made and the frustrations and limitations they put on themselves is a great feeling to me. I always wonder to myself what great things God has planned for every child, and thank God for letting me be a part of such a great story.

I think probably the best gift that my future husband will ever be able to give to me is the gift of a child. Ever since I was little, the thing I couldn't wait for was to be a mother. Now obviously, I don't want to have a child now, and I will wait for God's timing to have children, but still, the moments I am most looking forward to are the moments when I will have my own children to care for and look after and yes, even clean up after. I can't wait for God to give me the opportunity to give a child over to Him and nuture him or her in the ways of God and give them a great childhood with great examples of godly people.

I believe God's greatest desire is the same as my greatest desire. I believe the greatest gift we could give to God would be a child. I'm not talking about giving our children to Him, although that is definitely needed. I'm talking more along the lines of ourselves. We are God's children. The best thing we could do is give ourselves to Him and allow Him to have His children. I was in prayer the other day while holding a little one, and I was talking to God about how someday, in His timing, I wanted children so that I could nuture them in His ways and surrender them to Him. I think my exact thoughts were, "God I want to have children so that I can care for them." While I was praying, I just heard the Holy Spirit saying to me, "That's what I want too."

God wants to hold us and care for us. He wants to be our Daddy, and give us everything we desire. And he can do it, too. I've been away from God before, thinking that my idea was much better than anything else and that I could take care of myself. Boy, was I wrong. I need the Savior to help me and care for me. And he wants to help us and care for us. Just like a child.